Society Tells Us What Is and Isn't Okay

One of my main goals in life is to be like one of those masters.  I'm talking like a straight up master.  Not at kung fu, although this doesn't exclude kung fu.  I'm strictly talking about the kind of master who has life figured out more than anyone else.
To be honest I feel I'm already there.  But don't test me on this because I need some practice.  But I want to be one of those people who can give advice on anything.  But I want to do it so I can help people out.
Aside from my views and objectives on life, I can say that everyone is already a master.  We only lack the realization of what we can do.
Society tells us what is and isn't okay.
Just the other day I was telling someone this crazy theory I came up with about the reason we do things.  I believe that 80% of the people do 80% of what has influenced them.  That is just a guess on the percentages of course.
This kid tries to tell me that we do what we do because we live in the moment too much.
Hey I don't know who is right.  But whatever is going on, I have learned not to second guess myself and my views.  This has made me the person I am today.
Don't let others tell you what you know to be true is wrong.  Because yes, it is all in your head.  Where else would it be? 

Life and Death

What I have been thinking about lately is how I will die.
I mean if I really knew how I was going to die I'm not sure how I would act.  A part of me would be that crazy kid who treats everyone nice and has no fears.
On the other hand I think the worry-side of me would be on edge at all times.  Not knowing when, but only how I am going to die.
I like life.  To me, life is like a kid who just met his or her new best friend.  The light in my eyes wants something amazing.  I want to be a man full of love.
A lot of people have been dying young lately.
What's up with that?
Either way, that other part of me...
That part of me that nobody understands but myself...
Well that part also wants me to die young.  What is it like after death?  I've heard stories but I want the real thing.
I'll stay here until I'm meant to die though.  Suicide isn't for me.  Too much love for my family and friends.
If I were to commit suicide I would take a bunch of acid and ecstasy.
When I am peaking I will just jump off the highest building I can find and free fall to my free fly.
Eh ?
Imagine how that fall would be!  A whole new world.
Anyways I love life and I know I was sent here to die.  So why be scared ?

Lucy Is Watching Me

So I know this girl Lucy.  She has been with me for a couple days now.  Just sitting there.  She's pretty much the only thing on my mind.  I have been denying her as best as I can.  It's hard though.  When I'm with her my world opens up.
No...
My world is shattered.  I'm introduced to a whole new universe.  One I never knew before.  She helps me see myself for me.  She helps the paint on the wall dry faster.
That's not paint, that's blood!
Whatever it may be, with Lucy by my side everything is alright.  Until it goes bad.  Then I'm stuck here waiting and wondering how to get back.  Get back to what?
Finally I'm back.
(Took me two hours to write this)

Fears

I want to be short and sweet with this one because I like to write a lot.  The things I fear all come from experiences I have had.  The reason I fear things is because I feel they overpower me in some way.  The only I, myself, can overcome my fears is to obtain a perfect love.  With a perfect love, fear can't interfere.  I would feel on top of everything.  Even the things I wasn't on top of would be just fine as long as I was free from hate.  Fear comes from losing something.  Fear comes from hate.  Fear comes from thinking about what it would be like without a perfect love.  There is much to fear.  As long as you know this, I think everything will be okay.  Don't deny it.  Whoever said giving into your emotions makes you a weaker person is wrong.  Holding them back makes you weak.  All it does is portray a sense of power to others.  Be who you really are and you will know it is okay to fear.

Seeing Plainly

What does it mean to see the world plainly ?  If you have ever wanted to clear your thoughts and be blank then I can assure you it's impossible to have "nothing" on your mind.  However...... hahaha however.... There is a little trick I like to use called "reading".  Please live how you want to live.  Don't let people pressure you into things you don't want to do.  No matter what it is they are trying to pressure you into doing, if you are being pressured then you will be doing it for the wrong reasons.  The most important thing is living life at your own pace.  With that being said, I want you to just read what I'm saying.  I'm trying not to sound all smart and good at writing with this post.  I just want to help and explain my views.  The way I have learned to read things is by first learning myself.  After I did this, I was no longer searching for answers in my own life.  Now I could actually focus.  It's the greatest feeling on earth to find an answer to all this.  I think straight up love is a good enough answer for anyone.  So after I was comfortable and happy with my life, I learned that all the people who are struggling are just lost.  Everyone has problems.  I'm not denying that.  But I think that if you truly had an answer then you would know you could turn to that answer for any problem you have.  The type of answer I'm talking about is just a base.  It's the base for everything.  Once you know the base for everything, then will you start to know that everything is connected to that base.  Everything is one.  Do you understand what I am trying to say?  Everything you see in this world can be brought all the way back down to a base.  The assignment we did in Creative Writing is a great example of this.  The one where we wrote down all the things we saw.  If you ever said to yourself, "I see a bus, I see a desk, I see a pen, I see a person, I see a school..."  On and on and on the list goes.  Anything you see had to of come from somewhere right?  Well this is the base.  There is no such thing as a desk.  There is no such thing as a school.  There is no such thing as a pen.  All these things are simply things that human beings have labeled.  Everything has a label on it.  Think about it this way... If you took humans out of this life, what would there be?  Would time exist?  Or would everything just sit?  The human mind is the only thing that can tell time.  Without minds there would be no past and no future.  But that's all there ever is even with humans !! Can you tell me that you have ever been in the past or the future except for in your thoughts ?  No!  You are always in the present.  Your mind makes up the past and the future.  And our minds make up all these labels in life.  A desk is not a desk.  There is no such thing as a desk until we make it a desk.  All it really is is wood, plastic and metal.  Humans design labels to suit our needs.  We make desks so that we can sit, pens so we can write, schools so that we can.... lose creativity (just kidding).  So what about us ?  How can you read someone or something without seeing them as you see them.  How can you look at a desk and not see a desk?  It's simple.  All you have to do is know where you stand in space and time.  Know your purpose.  And know that is in front of you is there for a reason.  That's all.  There is no super reading powers.  No matter who you are, you have to see things how you see them until you know for a fact what is really there.  So when reading an actual person you must know them.  You have to know all that is behind them and all that they are.  So until you know that, which is impossible to know fully, then you can't know fully.  All you have to know is that someday you will know.  And that right now, everything will be okay if you stick to your base.  So my answer is comfort.  Find comfort.  Because trying to know everything will bring you stress and depression.  Find a base and let it comfort you in the present.

Thinking About You

Hey, I'm thinking about you.  I'm always thinking about you.  You're on my mind.  You're on my mind because I'm on your mind.  I'm thinking about you like a mind thinks.  I'm thinking.  And because I'm thinking, you're thinking.  I'm thinking about you like a human thinks about time.  But time doesn't think of us because time DON'T exist.  I'm thinking about you like I always think about us.  The way I think about us is the way you think about me.  And because I think about us and you think about me, that makes us a "we".  Me meaning two and yourself making "three".  I'm thinking about you because I can't stop.  You're not someone I fully trust or know.  If I fully knew anything except for what I know, then this writing would have to go.  I'm not bad at rhyming, but not very good.  And I'm thinking about you like a car and its hood.  So there you have it.  You've always had it. I have?  Yes, you're me!  I'm thinking of we!  Like a car and its hood.

Let Mr. Biggums Tell You What Life Is All About

You know what, let me tell you exact how to live your life.  Have you ever read a persuasive quote by a person who seems to have life all figured out?  Well you NEED to listen to that quote.  I'm sorry but there is no other way.  No but seriously, I am all for creating quotes on life.  However, I believe they should be quotes for your personal journal or library of quotes.  The moment you think you have all figured out is the exact moment you start to slip away.  Now let Mr. Biggums be serious and tell you a little of my thoughts on life.  The first thing about life is that it is labeled as a "life".  So we have this magical accident of exploding meteors and energy that obviously created themselves and then smashed together to create this thing we know as life.  The second thing is that in this life we have our lives.  And we evolved from apes of ancient time and we know for a fact that earth has been here for billions of years.  Yes, we do have the equipment that tells us that.  IT'S A FACT!  Now we take this life and our lives a step further into our children's lives!  But wait.... How did our children get here?  Oh that's right we have some accidental power to create more human beings that resemble us and stuff.  I mean there is no way any of this life could possibly, by some chance be on purpose.  I mean that would be totally absurd to believe something like that!  Why believe there is purpose when we have actual smart people who can figure out life in a theoretical way?  THIS WHOLE LIFE IS ONE BIG ACCIDENT!!!  The fourth and probably most important thing we have in this labeled "life" is our minds.  Wow we are pretty cool accidents aren't we?  We have minds that can come up with creativity, that can love, that can solve problems, that can trick us into thinking we have life all figured out.  The truth is, none of this life is by accident.  There is purpose here.  I want you to stop reading after this next sentence and just think about it until you understand the words how they are written, not how you want to hear them.  ALL OF WHAT WE KNOW IN THIS LIFE SERVES A PURPOSE.... I hope you took the time to really understand this.  Take anything for example.  Take a water bottle.  It's purpose is to hold water so that we can drink it and stay alive.  Paper is for writing on so that we can show others, or remind ourselves, what we have written.  Light bulbs are for giving us light to see.  If you think I am simply stating the obvious and being stupid by this point then be my guest to stop reading.  I encourage you to look at the bigger picture though.  Everything, no matter what, has, is, or will serve a purpose in life.  So why should this exclude humans?  Why should this exclude life itself?  I encourage you to find a purpose in your life and live your own life however you want to live it.  Or live it how others want you to live it.  I'm not here to uplift you or tell you what to do to have a positive life.  I'm not here to tell you what to do at all.  If you like being bossed around then do it!  If you like standing up for yourself, then great!  All I wish for you to get out of this is that life has purpose and is by no means in accident.  If you don't believe in God or some kind of higher power then that's fine too.  Maybe you just don't want to believe anything and just take in everything by surprise.  That's cool too and most of the people who aren't looking for anything usually find something.  If you want to be sure what your purpose is then I really do encourage you to not stop looking until you find it. You may find yourself fall into deep depression before you get there but I feel as though it will all pay off if you never stop looking for an answer, whether that be your life's answer, or life's answer in general.  Start now!  How did we get here?  If you really believe we evolved from apes then where did they come from?  Take it back as far as you can and whatever you do, don't stop until you get that answer.  You'll know.

So There's This Girl

I forgot what love can do to you.  I haven't even kissed this girl yet and I'm already weak when with her.  It scares me how much power she has over me.  There's something about love that makes you forget about recognition, superiority, respect, and all of the above.  I'm not one to tell you how it's done.  When it comes to love I get weak and forget all about the world.  If you are still with me here then I hope you can relate.  Love depresses me when I don't have it.  I'm a weak person and I'm the first to admit it.  Who says weakness is a bad thing though?  I think I am addicted to my weaknesses.  They are what make me strong.  Letting her toss my heart around is invigorating.  Yes, sometimes it physically hurts my heart to think about being without her.  Yes, I am writing this because somewhere along the lines I have felt so much pain for such a long time that I started to like it.  Yes, I just started liking her a week ago.  But none of this should matter because there are no guidelines to love, unless you set them.  What is love then?  This world is full of love and hate.  That's all there is.  Love, hate, and emptiness which doesn't exist.  Can you be lost in the midst of all this love and hate?  Not really, no.  You are never lost but you may think you are.  What I'm basically trying to say is that I don't care what you think.  This world has a funny way of labeling things and I don't like it one bit.  I believe you should find out every mystery for yourself and until then let it remain a mystery.  So find some love, lose it, gain the hate, then strive for the love you once had.  (this was my first blog don't laugh)