So There's This Girl

I forgot what love can do to you.  I haven't even kissed this girl yet and I'm already weak when with her.  It scares me how much power she has over me.  There's something about love that makes you forget about recognition, superiority, respect, and all of the above.  I'm not one to tell you how it's done.  When it comes to love I get weak and forget all about the world.  If you are still with me here then I hope you can relate.  Love depresses me when I don't have it.  I'm a weak person and I'm the first to admit it.  Who says weakness is a bad thing though?  I think I am addicted to my weaknesses.  They are what make me strong.  Letting her toss my heart around is invigorating.  Yes, sometimes it physically hurts my heart to think about being without her.  Yes, I am writing this because somewhere along the lines I have felt so much pain for such a long time that I started to like it.  Yes, I just started liking her a week ago.  But none of this should matter because there are no guidelines to love, unless you set them.  What is love then?  This world is full of love and hate.  That's all there is.  Love, hate, and emptiness which doesn't exist.  Can you be lost in the midst of all this love and hate?  Not really, no.  You are never lost but you may think you are.  What I'm basically trying to say is that I don't care what you think.  This world has a funny way of labeling things and I don't like it one bit.  I believe you should find out every mystery for yourself and until then let it remain a mystery.  So find some love, lose it, gain the hate, then strive for the love you once had.  (this was my first blog don't laugh)