Education Bound

The times we live in today are known as the times of our lives.  Now, with all that is going on in today's world we must first ask ourself one important question: Will we rise to the calls of those in need?  Well I can personally testify that those in need are those who are needy.  Let me elaborate.
Those who are in need are those who are needy.  This statement alone makes sense as it stands.  Coming from a human perspective it may seem a little odd as the needy ones are the ones who have and want everything.  The true definition of "needy" comes from those in need.  The point I am trying to make here is that maybe the ones who have everything and want everything have always been the ones in need of everything.  For without everything, we have nothing.  Thus the ones who are needy, or the ones who have everything, would be nothing without everything. 
Do you see how simple you can turn nothing into something?  This was a good example of something good coming out of Nazareth.  Or in other words, "something coming from nothing".

Thank you.

The Hero of Time

THE HERO OF TIME

Little is known of the hero we call the one to be destined as the time manipulator.  All that is known can be attained from the hero himself.  All that is known is attained from ancient records. 
Even less is known about our hero's ordinary life.  Aside from catching chickens and returning them to their owner in return for a prize, our young and sometimes old hero has been known to mingle with the princess.  His whole purpose is to be with her and someday abide in his small but comfy tree house with her as a family. 
Will she give him the love he needs?  I think it is safe to say that being alive today our roots come from that of the hero of time and his beloved princess.  With his sword/monster slaying skills and courage he is destined to be the one for her. 
Little does our hero know his princess is about to be in a lot bigger trouble than he ever sought out for repairing.  The evil monster of time has captured her for the power of wisdom in order to lure our Hero in for his courageous power. 
Will our Hero save his princess?
Who exactly has captured the wisdom bound princess?
Will our Hero rise to this courageous call and slay the beast of all beasts?

#11 Extra Blog Post

Summer.
Breeze.
Peace.
Love.
Shade.
Life.
Weightless.
NOTHING MATTERS ANYMORE.
Worry-free.
Carefree.
FREE.
Spinning.
Waterfalls.
Mountains.
Imagine your perfect setting.  Mine is high in the mountains of Asia where the clouds envelop me and sunlight is a special occasion.  Waterfalls surround me and greenery is a must.  Sound is an element of much peace in these parts.  Nothing unwanted is allowed.  A mile down the road is a beautiful forest where there is nothing but bright gray light.  The clouds are on my side.  They let no sunlight in to diminish the mood.  Everything is perfect.  Not a worry in the world.  Rivers filled with fish.  Clean water to drink.  A beautiful wife to spend eternity with.
This is how it should be....

Yo Dis Some Dialogue

"What it is girl?  What's up?  Can a brother get a nickel for some gum?"
"Gimme dat numba, and I'll call.  And I'll follow you're stench in the gym"
"Okay Tony I'm getting freaked out now can you stop?"
"I'm going to kill you first, and then eat you"
(Worrying) "Let me out of the car now, please"
"I'm going to kill you.  You told me to stop being so angry and I'M NOT EVEN ANGRY!!!!!!"
"John look at yourself you are very angry and you need help"
"My name's .... NOT .... RIIIIIIIIIIICK"
"I'm really scared now and don't know where to turn"
"Well that's because you're atheist"
"I'm atheist because there is no God"
"FIRST YOU CALL ME ANGRY AND NOW YOU SAY THERE IS NO GOD???"
"I KNOW there is no God"
"Well I KNOW how to make you believe"
"What, kill me?"
"No like this...."
(holding a gun to her face and cocking it back) she screams, "OH GOD PLEASE HELP ME"

#10 extra blog post (SUCK THAT AKON)

But another late post by none other than Mr. Biggums (AKA) Biggum Chokee.
"Alright people I'm coming to you live from Alpine, UT.  The heart and soul of my own ass."
"Biggums why don't you let the people in on a little secret."
"Of course... What I sound like is what I taste like."
"You heard it here first people.  This is Biggum Chokee coming at you once again from Alpine, UT."

Anyways I get really hyper sometimes.  Life....  Let me tell you what life is all about.  It's about being a beast.  Getting beaten and burnt and sliced and watching murders go down.  Now you take all of this and you wipe it off your clean cut and freshly tailored new suit and say, "pshh, whatever".

That's what life is all about right there.  Nothing else is important.  It's about murdering and slicing.  Whether that be murdering a freshly sliced pizza or a grocery store full of melon.

I got a watch today.  It's pretty sexy.  I'm pretty much pimpin what can I say?  Getting paid.

Couple weeks ago I got a speeding ticket.  I was going 102 in a 75 zone.

SUCK THAT AKON !!!  PSHH, 90 IN A 65 IS CHILD'S PLAY

Blog #9 Extra

I know I am late on this one.  And I plead for mercy on my grade.  Alright look I went through a three or four week depressive state.  Have mercy on my soul and help me out with my grades.  It's my final year of school and I already finished all my credits.  My dad made me keep all my classes.  That would depress anyone. 
But I have been thinking about making it up to Mr. Nelson by doing something nice for him. 
Lately what has been on my mind is simply this.... GOooGOogOGoGOGogoGOOgoGOogoOgoO... So aside from that I am really interested in my education lately.  If I could I would only come to creative writing.  I love to read and write.  Two things that I find very fun.  I just want my knowledge of the world and my beliefs to increase.  It makes for good conversation at 2:00 AM.  I love education but I have never been a fan of wasting my time in school.  The only classes I have ever really learned something from is math and English.  Everything else, like psychology and sociology were all the types of classes I just could care less about.  Anyone with a brain is going to grow and learn how life is for themselves.  Who cares why people do things?  Last time I went to a psychologist he tried telling me what was wrong by the way I was sitting down in the chair.
P.S.
I was drinking some tea the other day and I noticed my pinky was up in the air.... Subconsciously

Favorite Film (Poetry Films)

My favorite film by far was the cartoon one of the cactus that won the "WTF" award from period A2.  That was pretty funny.
But seriously I loved all the films.  It was great to get out there and use our imaginations.  We had to commit a couple of crimes on the way but that's nothing new to this guy.  Ours was pretty cool because we had a good video editor doing our work.  My favorite serious film was Roah's and Tim's.  They are pretty good artists.  Although they bag on any music they don't like I still love them.  And now I'm going off on a whole different tangent.
The films were great.  I think each class should do them every year from now on.  I have a lot of friends in our class but I know how it feels to have no friends in the class and have to do a group project.  It can suck.  So a suggestion I would make is to maybe have a side project kids can do instead of making a movie.  Just in case they feel uncomfortable filming or just plain uncomfortable with working with people.  Just a suggestion though.  Anyways my favorite part of the entire film festival was just the freedom we had to make our films.  Also I like how it was presented.  Mr. Nelson did a great job hyping it up and it made it that much more funny and interesting.

Blog # 8

I've had a falling out.  I've given up.  Why am I even here ?  Why do I always put spaces between my sentences and my question marks but not any other ending punctuation marks like periods ?  Anyways I have given up so much that I now feel the need to title my blog posts with the number they are so Mr. Nelson can recognize them and hopefully won't fail me.
What really matters to me now is education.  Not school.  Just being educated.
Wanna hear a bunch of crap ?  I finished all my credits to graduate but my dad made me keep all seven of my classes.  That's right... SEVEN.  I could be at home sleeping, reading, gaming, eating or even have a job by now.  But that wouldn't be the right thing to do now would it ??
ANGER is what drives people.  I've learned to channel mine into kind behavior.  Believe it or not that is possible.  And it feels great.  I feel great.  Psych !!  I want to read books and play video games and write and exercise and do whatever I want to do !!!  But I have to wake up and go to school everyday.  Hey I must admit I do love this class though.

COMPUTER !

WOW.  Can I just say that the past two weeks have been two amazing weeks.  I have wanted a pc for a very long time now and I finally have it !!  The excitement running through me is too much for me to not write about.  That's all that is on my mind lately !  So I want to talk about limits.  Limitations on what is possible and what is not possible.  I believe that you can truly achieve ANYTHING that you set your mind too.  That is something that I guarantee most people would agree with.  But then you go up to those same people who agree with that and tell them what you are trying to achieve.  Then they will see it is impossible to do that.  So limitations are a thing of the past.  Next I want to tell you what I am trying to achieve.  I'm trying to achieve obtaining this type of excitement at will.  Whenever I want it I can have it !!  And some of you might be thinking it would be a waste to have it all the time.  But I'm talking about the type of excitement that keeps growing and growing and is never the same.  So that is what I am working with right now and I can not wait to get my computer up and running and playing games on it.  I love you.

Jealousy

One word to describe anger mixed with passion for something you don't have but want is called "jealousy".  Now, most of the time jealousy occurs in denial.  People will deny EVEN to THEMSELVES that they are not jealous.  I can see it a lot in younger children and also my own generation as well.  I used to get jealous but not really angry.  I learned to control a lot of it by being strong in what I have already.  I was pretty jealous to read some of the poems we looked at in class.  And I'm being serious about that.  I wish I could write poetry.  I CAN write poetry.  I just don't want to.  I would rather explain what I'm trying to say in a way that can better help the people with less imagination.  One poem I was jealous of was by JEWEL.  It's called PS.  I will just cite the whole thing since it is not very long:
I wrote those nice
poems only because
the honest ones
would frighten you

For some reason that just speaks to me in more ways than I can tell you.  It brings me back to so many thoughts and inspirations.  And all of that happened in for small lines !!!  That's why I'm jealous.  I do not have the confidence to write something that inspiring in that small of a text.  But I will now work on it.  Thank you Jewel !!

Photography Class

I'm in photography class writing my blog post when I'm supposed to be doing work.  Do you see what laziness and procrastination can do to someone ??  It deletes the creativity and makes me work fast.  Although I think I am very creative.  What others may think is that I'm rambling.  Anything that comes from my mind to this computer screen is an act of creativity.  Everything is creative.  Nothing is original.  Originality is non-existent.  Every single thought you have ever thought before has already been thought of.  See??  Maybe you're not on the same page as me.  But I'm not going to explain something you won't understand.  There is no past and future.  There is no such thing as time.  Everything is happening.  Everything is everything.  We're all here.  Past is an imaginary time made up by the human mind.  Nobody can prove the past exists through anything but their own mind.  The future doesn't exist without a past.  All we are is a dot staying in one place.  Eternal presence. 

SLEEP

If I could dream about one thing for the rest of my life it would definitely not be poetry.  Poetry is something that is great to have but once you have it you should never try to make others like it.  Sleeping CAN be a great time for poetry.  Your mind just runs to nowhere and beyond.  Nothing happens.  When something as blank as nothing can happen, you are for sure dreaming.  A little bit of what makes me dream is the things I know I'm supposed to work on in life.  When I go to bed I'm obviously thinking of something first.  Well this turns into a million shattered thoughts of life and what may be out of this life.  Who knows??  I'm sleeping !

Where Does Fear Come From

Seriously.  Why does it scare me to talk to the girl I want to be with?  Well because I am afraid it will go wrong. Why am I afraid it will go wrong?  Because she is a very pretty girl and I don't feel worthy at times.  Why don't you feel worthy at times?  Because I have low self esteem.  Why do you have low self esteem?  Aside of what I think, I let others tell me what I can and can not do, leading me to this imaginary line of fear.  What is this imaginary line of fear you talk about?
This imaginary line of fear that others portray on me is something I allow myself to be afraid of.  The reason I am afraid of fear is because I let myself be.  
You see that?  Sometimes it is the most easy answer.  But then why is it so hard to find answers all the time?  Because we're afraid.  We're afraid of who we won't become.  Who we will become.  Who cares???  I'm always going to be me and nobody will change that no matter how much they impact my life.  So stop pretending.  Be yourself.  Life is better that way.  Anybody who can't respect that doesn't deserve to be around you.  Next time someone tries to bring down what you are trying to become, ask them why.  Why are you trying to bring me down?  I guarantee their answer will be hidden behind some type of confidence.  That's exactly my point.
The only reason others bring you down is to bring themselves up.  ......

Courage

I like courage.  Courage is my favorite part of the triforce.  Courage, power and wisdom.  Of the three I think I would be most comfortable having courage.  I wouldn't be afraid to tackle any obstacle that I really want to get passed but am usually too scared to even try so I just walk away.  What if there was ONE obstacle I was too scared to tackle.  And what if that ONE obstacle could have been the one that opened up a whole new world to me.  An exciting world.
A world filled with nothing but comfort and peace.  Joy.  Endless happiness.  No tolerance could be made towards what you achieve.
And if I only had the courage to get past this "fear" we speak of then I would have been fine.
Check out my next blog post called "where does fear come from" to get an idea of, well.... WHERE FEAR COMES FROM !!!!!

Society Tells Us What Is and Isn't Okay

One of my main goals in life is to be like one of those masters.  I'm talking like a straight up master.  Not at kung fu, although this doesn't exclude kung fu.  I'm strictly talking about the kind of master who has life figured out more than anyone else.
To be honest I feel I'm already there.  But don't test me on this because I need some practice.  But I want to be one of those people who can give advice on anything.  But I want to do it so I can help people out.
Aside from my views and objectives on life, I can say that everyone is already a master.  We only lack the realization of what we can do.
Society tells us what is and isn't okay.
Just the other day I was telling someone this crazy theory I came up with about the reason we do things.  I believe that 80% of the people do 80% of what has influenced them.  That is just a guess on the percentages of course.
This kid tries to tell me that we do what we do because we live in the moment too much.
Hey I don't know who is right.  But whatever is going on, I have learned not to second guess myself and my views.  This has made me the person I am today.
Don't let others tell you what you know to be true is wrong.  Because yes, it is all in your head.  Where else would it be? 

Life and Death

What I have been thinking about lately is how I will die.
I mean if I really knew how I was going to die I'm not sure how I would act.  A part of me would be that crazy kid who treats everyone nice and has no fears.
On the other hand I think the worry-side of me would be on edge at all times.  Not knowing when, but only how I am going to die.
I like life.  To me, life is like a kid who just met his or her new best friend.  The light in my eyes wants something amazing.  I want to be a man full of love.
A lot of people have been dying young lately.
What's up with that?
Either way, that other part of me...
That part of me that nobody understands but myself...
Well that part also wants me to die young.  What is it like after death?  I've heard stories but I want the real thing.
I'll stay here until I'm meant to die though.  Suicide isn't for me.  Too much love for my family and friends.
If I were to commit suicide I would take a bunch of acid and ecstasy.
When I am peaking I will just jump off the highest building I can find and free fall to my free fly.
Eh ?
Imagine how that fall would be!  A whole new world.
Anyways I love life and I know I was sent here to die.  So why be scared ?

Lucy Is Watching Me

So I know this girl Lucy.  She has been with me for a couple days now.  Just sitting there.  She's pretty much the only thing on my mind.  I have been denying her as best as I can.  It's hard though.  When I'm with her my world opens up.
No...
My world is shattered.  I'm introduced to a whole new universe.  One I never knew before.  She helps me see myself for me.  She helps the paint on the wall dry faster.
That's not paint, that's blood!
Whatever it may be, with Lucy by my side everything is alright.  Until it goes bad.  Then I'm stuck here waiting and wondering how to get back.  Get back to what?
Finally I'm back.
(Took me two hours to write this)

Fears

I want to be short and sweet with this one because I like to write a lot.  The things I fear all come from experiences I have had.  The reason I fear things is because I feel they overpower me in some way.  The only I, myself, can overcome my fears is to obtain a perfect love.  With a perfect love, fear can't interfere.  I would feel on top of everything.  Even the things I wasn't on top of would be just fine as long as I was free from hate.  Fear comes from losing something.  Fear comes from hate.  Fear comes from thinking about what it would be like without a perfect love.  There is much to fear.  As long as you know this, I think everything will be okay.  Don't deny it.  Whoever said giving into your emotions makes you a weaker person is wrong.  Holding them back makes you weak.  All it does is portray a sense of power to others.  Be who you really are and you will know it is okay to fear.

Seeing Plainly

What does it mean to see the world plainly ?  If you have ever wanted to clear your thoughts and be blank then I can assure you it's impossible to have "nothing" on your mind.  However...... hahaha however.... There is a little trick I like to use called "reading".  Please live how you want to live.  Don't let people pressure you into things you don't want to do.  No matter what it is they are trying to pressure you into doing, if you are being pressured then you will be doing it for the wrong reasons.  The most important thing is living life at your own pace.  With that being said, I want you to just read what I'm saying.  I'm trying not to sound all smart and good at writing with this post.  I just want to help and explain my views.  The way I have learned to read things is by first learning myself.  After I did this, I was no longer searching for answers in my own life.  Now I could actually focus.  It's the greatest feeling on earth to find an answer to all this.  I think straight up love is a good enough answer for anyone.  So after I was comfortable and happy with my life, I learned that all the people who are struggling are just lost.  Everyone has problems.  I'm not denying that.  But I think that if you truly had an answer then you would know you could turn to that answer for any problem you have.  The type of answer I'm talking about is just a base.  It's the base for everything.  Once you know the base for everything, then will you start to know that everything is connected to that base.  Everything is one.  Do you understand what I am trying to say?  Everything you see in this world can be brought all the way back down to a base.  The assignment we did in Creative Writing is a great example of this.  The one where we wrote down all the things we saw.  If you ever said to yourself, "I see a bus, I see a desk, I see a pen, I see a person, I see a school..."  On and on and on the list goes.  Anything you see had to of come from somewhere right?  Well this is the base.  There is no such thing as a desk.  There is no such thing as a school.  There is no such thing as a pen.  All these things are simply things that human beings have labeled.  Everything has a label on it.  Think about it this way... If you took humans out of this life, what would there be?  Would time exist?  Or would everything just sit?  The human mind is the only thing that can tell time.  Without minds there would be no past and no future.  But that's all there ever is even with humans !! Can you tell me that you have ever been in the past or the future except for in your thoughts ?  No!  You are always in the present.  Your mind makes up the past and the future.  And our minds make up all these labels in life.  A desk is not a desk.  There is no such thing as a desk until we make it a desk.  All it really is is wood, plastic and metal.  Humans design labels to suit our needs.  We make desks so that we can sit, pens so we can write, schools so that we can.... lose creativity (just kidding).  So what about us ?  How can you read someone or something without seeing them as you see them.  How can you look at a desk and not see a desk?  It's simple.  All you have to do is know where you stand in space and time.  Know your purpose.  And know that is in front of you is there for a reason.  That's all.  There is no super reading powers.  No matter who you are, you have to see things how you see them until you know for a fact what is really there.  So when reading an actual person you must know them.  You have to know all that is behind them and all that they are.  So until you know that, which is impossible to know fully, then you can't know fully.  All you have to know is that someday you will know.  And that right now, everything will be okay if you stick to your base.  So my answer is comfort.  Find comfort.  Because trying to know everything will bring you stress and depression.  Find a base and let it comfort you in the present.

Thinking About You

Hey, I'm thinking about you.  I'm always thinking about you.  You're on my mind.  You're on my mind because I'm on your mind.  I'm thinking about you like a mind thinks.  I'm thinking.  And because I'm thinking, you're thinking.  I'm thinking about you like a human thinks about time.  But time doesn't think of us because time DON'T exist.  I'm thinking about you like I always think about us.  The way I think about us is the way you think about me.  And because I think about us and you think about me, that makes us a "we".  Me meaning two and yourself making "three".  I'm thinking about you because I can't stop.  You're not someone I fully trust or know.  If I fully knew anything except for what I know, then this writing would have to go.  I'm not bad at rhyming, but not very good.  And I'm thinking about you like a car and its hood.  So there you have it.  You've always had it. I have?  Yes, you're me!  I'm thinking of we!  Like a car and its hood.

Let Mr. Biggums Tell You What Life Is All About

You know what, let me tell you exact how to live your life.  Have you ever read a persuasive quote by a person who seems to have life all figured out?  Well you NEED to listen to that quote.  I'm sorry but there is no other way.  No but seriously, I am all for creating quotes on life.  However, I believe they should be quotes for your personal journal or library of quotes.  The moment you think you have all figured out is the exact moment you start to slip away.  Now let Mr. Biggums be serious and tell you a little of my thoughts on life.  The first thing about life is that it is labeled as a "life".  So we have this magical accident of exploding meteors and energy that obviously created themselves and then smashed together to create this thing we know as life.  The second thing is that in this life we have our lives.  And we evolved from apes of ancient time and we know for a fact that earth has been here for billions of years.  Yes, we do have the equipment that tells us that.  IT'S A FACT!  Now we take this life and our lives a step further into our children's lives!  But wait.... How did our children get here?  Oh that's right we have some accidental power to create more human beings that resemble us and stuff.  I mean there is no way any of this life could possibly, by some chance be on purpose.  I mean that would be totally absurd to believe something like that!  Why believe there is purpose when we have actual smart people who can figure out life in a theoretical way?  THIS WHOLE LIFE IS ONE BIG ACCIDENT!!!  The fourth and probably most important thing we have in this labeled "life" is our minds.  Wow we are pretty cool accidents aren't we?  We have minds that can come up with creativity, that can love, that can solve problems, that can trick us into thinking we have life all figured out.  The truth is, none of this life is by accident.  There is purpose here.  I want you to stop reading after this next sentence and just think about it until you understand the words how they are written, not how you want to hear them.  ALL OF WHAT WE KNOW IN THIS LIFE SERVES A PURPOSE.... I hope you took the time to really understand this.  Take anything for example.  Take a water bottle.  It's purpose is to hold water so that we can drink it and stay alive.  Paper is for writing on so that we can show others, or remind ourselves, what we have written.  Light bulbs are for giving us light to see.  If you think I am simply stating the obvious and being stupid by this point then be my guest to stop reading.  I encourage you to look at the bigger picture though.  Everything, no matter what, has, is, or will serve a purpose in life.  So why should this exclude humans?  Why should this exclude life itself?  I encourage you to find a purpose in your life and live your own life however you want to live it.  Or live it how others want you to live it.  I'm not here to uplift you or tell you what to do to have a positive life.  I'm not here to tell you what to do at all.  If you like being bossed around then do it!  If you like standing up for yourself, then great!  All I wish for you to get out of this is that life has purpose and is by no means in accident.  If you don't believe in God or some kind of higher power then that's fine too.  Maybe you just don't want to believe anything and just take in everything by surprise.  That's cool too and most of the people who aren't looking for anything usually find something.  If you want to be sure what your purpose is then I really do encourage you to not stop looking until you find it. You may find yourself fall into deep depression before you get there but I feel as though it will all pay off if you never stop looking for an answer, whether that be your life's answer, or life's answer in general.  Start now!  How did we get here?  If you really believe we evolved from apes then where did they come from?  Take it back as far as you can and whatever you do, don't stop until you get that answer.  You'll know.

So There's This Girl

I forgot what love can do to you.  I haven't even kissed this girl yet and I'm already weak when with her.  It scares me how much power she has over me.  There's something about love that makes you forget about recognition, superiority, respect, and all of the above.  I'm not one to tell you how it's done.  When it comes to love I get weak and forget all about the world.  If you are still with me here then I hope you can relate.  Love depresses me when I don't have it.  I'm a weak person and I'm the first to admit it.  Who says weakness is a bad thing though?  I think I am addicted to my weaknesses.  They are what make me strong.  Letting her toss my heart around is invigorating.  Yes, sometimes it physically hurts my heart to think about being without her.  Yes, I am writing this because somewhere along the lines I have felt so much pain for such a long time that I started to like it.  Yes, I just started liking her a week ago.  But none of this should matter because there are no guidelines to love, unless you set them.  What is love then?  This world is full of love and hate.  That's all there is.  Love, hate, and emptiness which doesn't exist.  Can you be lost in the midst of all this love and hate?  Not really, no.  You are never lost but you may think you are.  What I'm basically trying to say is that I don't care what you think.  This world has a funny way of labeling things and I don't like it one bit.  I believe you should find out every mystery for yourself and until then let it remain a mystery.  So find some love, lose it, gain the hate, then strive for the love you once had.  (this was my first blog don't laugh)

New Blog

So I'm way excited for everyone (one or two people) to read my blog and stuff.  It's going to be a great time and I plan to make the music the biggest part of it all!  If you have a minute then listen to at least one song on here.  Might make your day!  I love you all so much